Freelance Writer Janny(Jan Marie)C

This has me puzzled of recent. I have had 3 or 4 wonderful opportunities to contribute and submit my work on some prominent paying blogs and magazines, even a spot in the latest Chicken Soup for the Soul books. Sounds good right?

WRONG! I could not write about me! This did not make sense to me. I should be the easiest topic to write on! In fact, I have no problem expressing feelings in words. I rather write than talk! Every time I tried though….it just did not…the magic just didn’t happen. Nothing flowed out right. It turned out to be a painful outpouring of babbling.

It makes me wonder has my life been THAT painful? So painful to try and look back on it makes you want to just abandon all cause curl in a little ball and die? My life was not that bad, and the pain that was there I wanted to write about and share hoping maybe I could help someone to feel not so alone like I once did. Only I am left to discover it is a pandora’s box that might destroy all of my humanity if it is open.

I thought my past was resolved. I thought I was free. I was clean. Only to discovered I only resolved half of myself.

 

 

 

 

As a Freelance Writer, I wrote under the name Janny C.

When I decided to write my book Angelic Confessions I didn’t want to use my freelance writing name thus Jan Marie was born. I then came to the conclusion or a mid-life crisis which ever term you prefer that maybe this was a bad idea leading to confusion. Though I would like to think society has the proper intelligence to kind of see I am one in the same, I mean it is kind of obvious. In the end, I was tired of the split identity I am a writer whole, not a writer divided, so I am Janny(Jan Marie)C Writer/Author/Reviewer/ Promoter/ Poet extraordinaire.  One one quite writes like me.